Heh micky once went up to 2nd place on my ranking though now junsu has taken over..but no matter what i still love this boi for his silly expressions that never fail to crack me up! Esp when he is playing with junsu or jaejoong. Lol. The 3 darling jokers of the family..xDD

Hmm had a dream about someone yesterday. N so dumb one of the minor characters was the tour guide me n angel had in seoul. =p Dun worry i dun miss him at all..ha. Anyway it was a pretty sad dream n i am not sure if things will ever go back to normal again. Oh well.

N today i was thinking again about how pple change. Its kinda scary isnt it. Up til now i still think that if i had done abit more for shawn that time, he probably wouldnt have turned out the way he is now. Ok fine i aint a saint like what siyu was telling me yesterday so i cant possibly 'save' shawn if this was really the path he chose. Its just kinda odd how like when i first knew shawn he was still this guai kid who din really care how his hair looked like. So i was like always commenting how his hair seemed like he just got up from bed or something n he would always smile ever so shyly. It was this air of innocence around him that got me really doting on this student of mine to the extent i even took him as my di. Hence for a period of time we were really close n he would confide in me cos he wasnt on good terms with his mum n family at that time. Actually I knew that all he needed was just a listening ear but probably cos he was from a single parent family, so his mum couldnt afford the luxury of spending time with him. Hence in the end i was playing the role of tutor cum sis cum counsellor all combined into one. But trust me, it wasnt a difficult task at all.

Well as all things go according to Murphy's Law..everything went downhill after he knew some 'friends'. Of cos I cant comment much since i do not know them personally but frankly, i cant deny that i attributed most of the blame to them as well. Things got worse between shawn n his family n it came to the point that his mum resorted to getting proper counselling cos he was getting out of hand.

In the end i also gave up cos he din listen to me as much as he used to do anymore. N i regret to say i did it just before his O levels..

stupid right?

Oh well. No point crying over spilt milk.

Now when i look at his pics in friendster..i kinda feel that i no longer know this boy..

Too beng for my taste?

*shrugs*

Ok since today is yoochun's birthday i shall not harp on unhappy things..

Back to watching my 불량가족!! I wanted to watch the show badly for heechul but end up i found another cutie..lol. 박진우~ Actually he reminded me of a younger kim junghoon..